18 weeks, 3 days. 2nd Trimester.
So here we are.. a few months after my first post. I promise I'll get a hang of this.
I am 3 days away from finding out the sex of my little Love Child! So excited. I figure if I was married and more well off, I could stand a surprise, but I have so much to prepare for, I'm ready to find out whether this little being inside of me has a penis or vagina!! Ha Ha! Of course I'd be ecstatic either way, but I am personally hoping for a boy. And I have my reasons...
Growing up as the oldest of four, 3 girls, and the youngest a boy. So far, it seems boys are alot easier to deal with. I guess it is all a mater of opionion. But I'm sorry, when it comes to the pre-teen, teenage girl, I want nothing to do with them. Even though that was me only a couple years ago. My sisters (currently 14 and 17) are litterally driving me to hell and back with all the drama, not just in their lives, but in all their friends lives, and their friends-friends-friends life.. Its too much. I'd much rather put on my rainboots and ripped clothes and go bushwacking thru the woods with Joseph (my 10 year old brother) to find the 'invading enemy', a dead tree to chop down, or a deer antler to bring back to my dad. Girls make everything so complicated, anylizing every little detail of every little thing. But boys can also complicate things, at least in my experience, thinking they "know it all". All in all, Im praying for a little "guy" . A little daniel boone who wants to explore the world with his momma.
Soon enough I'll know. And soon enough I'll be up to my elbows in breast milk, poopy diapers, and onsies, running on no sleep and no money. But I am doing everything I can now to help prepare myself to be the best mom I can be. I just cant wait to know true love. Because the day that that baby emerges out of me, I know there will be no turning back, nothing else in the world will be able to seperate us at that moment because of love. I get chills just thinking about it. I guess it is just something everyone will have to experience for themselves.
Peace, Love, Child..
"we make plans and God laughs, set goals and do your best and laugh with him" -aunt heather