Thursday, April 28, 2011

in the begining..

what came first the chicken or the egg? that is probably not the best way to start a blog... so pause, delete, rewind that..

My name is Mary Michaela, I am a 20 year old single female. I believe I am more of a girl than I am a woman. But that's besides the point that I recently found myself in a bit of a predicament about 2 months ago, to be exact 7 weeks and 5 days. During the early hours of March 5th 2011, between my middle finger and thumb I held my first, second, then third, and finally fourth pregnancy test, each one with a little purple plus sign. Knowing what this meant and naturally being myself I immediately go into a state of panic followed by a state of complete and utter disbelief. And for the next few days I continue to disagree with truth, but knowing somewhere deep down in me there is a little jelly bean of a fetus sucking up every last bit of life i have.

Well thank God that day is over, because the initial shock of any disappointingly-surprising moment is never fun. I am on the road to exposure as I continue to tell family members, friends, bosses, co-workers, and repent to God for not only my sinful actions but blatantly knowing what I was doing was unhealthy and harmful to my life, my body, my brain! "Rolling drugs sex rock"...not a healthy motto or way to live. Trust me, I don't think I've ever been so healthy in my life as I am now being 3 months pregnant.

That being said, I have dedicated this blog to my parents, because I was their "Love Child", and that is what I will call my little jelly bean... until further notice.

I have received so much support and love from my community which helps me everyday. Because I should be traveling the world, journaling, serving people in need, caring for young girls in the sex-trade, making sea shell necklaces, helping deliver babies, designing soft and sexy lingerie, or teaching young children how to paint and create in school, because these are all things that I could imagine myself doing. But for now, or for life, I will put those things aside and focus on "Love Child".

This is my journey, my thoughts, my world plus one. Join me..

Peace, Love, Child.



  1. WE LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and this love child!!

  2. God is Good! Continue with the faith..
    Miss you girl and can't wait to meet this little angel.

    Love you.......